Fortunate Accidents

my mom forgot to log out from facebook after using my lappy so when i tried to access my fb account, i accidentally accessed her profile instead. read: i did not hack her account. she just forgot to log out so i took advanta...i mean, i made the most out of the situation. anyway, my mom's kinda prude and prissy so there's really nothing juicy when i checked her profile activity. again, read: i didn't check her messages. 

as i was saying there's really nothing fascinating or intriguing about her posts (geez, she doesn't even have a lot of posts/status updates). however, she's facebook friends with most of our relatives who i opted not to add as friends on fb for the mere reason that i don't want them to meddle with my life. sounded a bit mean there but that's true. i've had that weird cyber fishbowl feeling when i still had friendster. i don't want them to wreck my online social life for the 2nd time and so, again, i took the liberty to facebook-stalk my relatives (and my sisters. haha). here's what i realized:

*i've grown distant from my guy cousins who treated me as their least favorite cousin when we were younger because of my early penchant for books and nature over counter strike and wwf. i feel like if ever there's a family reunion, i will still be the outcast in the bunch of boys because first, i don't have or i've never had girlfriend quarrel stories or wifey anecdotes to share and two, i am not yet suffering from hair loss. peace. for the record, my guy cousins are really awesome.

*my girl cousins are now moms and they have beautiful kids but i have no intention of befriending them or their husbands or my nieces and nephews. i've sensed too much family drama and domestic divaness on their posts. my newsfeed is too hip and vibrant (thanks to my few fb friends) and i want to keep it that way. again, peace. my girl cousins are really caring and sweet.

*my uncles and aunts are all too busy to check facebook and update their posts so i'd rather give the fb friend space to some friends who can regularly update their status. besides, my aunts and uncles may be silent on fb but probably when they see me i will hear a lot of rants and raves from them about random topics that i am clueless about. 

*my sisters are claiming that they are extreme opposites but there's just too much glaring similarities in all of their posts. one way or another, they've been fangirling the same kpop stars. they are both grade-conscious and they won't miss the opportunity to...ehem...brag their academic achievements. though they're both wonderful, they don't have boyfie posts or pics. matter of fact, they have bullied some boys who attempted to be "a lil closer" to them. most of their posts have exclamation marks for reasons that i can't explain.  some of their posts are in jejenese. all of their selfie shots were taken using my phone and edited using camera360. but the best thing about them is that they show care for each other even on facebook. like, there was one time my younger sister posted a selfie and my youngest sister was quick in liking the pic and posting this comment: "ate, malaki ilong mo dito tsaka halata yung pimple marks mo." the photo wasn't removed despite that comment. i guess it was because the pic gained a lot of likes. 

it was really hard for me to log out my mom's fb account because i felt like there's still a lot for me to discover through her profile. but i guess my guilt instinct signaled me to stop because i am technically committing a petty crime which is invasion of privacy. anyhow, there's one more thing that i have realized: over the years, i have grown and i have been alienated from my family not because they have pushed me away but because i have chosen to isolate myself to focus on self-improvement. so now, i think it's high time to make up for the lost years because even if i can add numerous facebook friends, follow a lot of people on instagram or tag random names on twitter, my relationship with them can never be like the one that i have with my family. my sisters will not unfriend me forever if they find out i have a boyfriend, my relatives will not unfollow me whenever i need urgent help, and most of all, my mom will not block me if there's just too much stress and drama going on. whatever my status is, my family will always be there until such time that i would need to log out.

sleepless saturday, fulfilling sunday :)